am so blah.

I've been doing a really great job posting in 2009. Just look at all I've written! I've been off work for the past month which means two days a week when the boy is at preschool I get to hang out with myself. And that just feels weird. I've discovered I'm not especially good company for myself. I tend to let myself sloth around and I don't say a word when myself gets nothing accomplished. I even looked the other way when I noticed myself balled up on the couch watching GED on tv. Let's face it. Me and myself are not good together. We are going nowhere fast.

My hands are freezing cold. I wish I could just get past that but I can't.

There are so many other things I need to be doing right now. Instead I've been looking at beach house rentals. I am not using my time wisely.

I'm going to go do something productive. But I'm not going to eat anything because I'm on a strict no eating past 5pm diet thing. It's going to be a long night.

Crap-olay!

My daughter usually wakes up at least once a night and starts talking. Only it's the most frustrating kind of sleep-talking you can imagine. Something like this: "I can't... I won't... It's not... I think... I don't..." Then she goes back to sleep. And I'm standing there saying "You can't what? You won't what? It's not what? You think what? You don't what? AAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRGGGHHHH."

Tonight my husband and I watched "Appaloosa" and ate a lot of freaking tacos. "Appaloosa" was not good. Ed Harris and Viggo Mortenson, WTF you guys? Renee Zellwegger was terrible. And she looked really old. Even my husband who happens to be very kind and rarely badmouths the way actresses look in movies wondered out loud why they made Renee look so ugly in this movie. I could barely hear him over all my gagging noises and exaggerated sighs every time she appeared on screen.

At one point I looked at my husband and said, "This movie is just not right." And he said, "It's the direction and the script, they're just not good." It turns out the movie was directed by Ed Harris and he also helped adapt the screenplay. Sorry, Ed. Please stick to acting. Thanks.